What Love isn't 2

 

My fear to hurt her is the sole reason I'm still quiet. This feeling is obviously not mutual but one sided. This hurt or breakfast is definitely going to be served. This relationship will obviously run on her own love fuel alone, so painful. Was she wrong to have done it? 

I realized she was love starved. I don't know much about her home but, I could predict that she was lacking one major diet from there - love. That was what she was trying to find in me; but she thought she could find it only in intimacy. Oh my, I'm celibate. 

Again, I wasn't given the chance to process this new journey. She had started all lovey dovey on me. I now had a pet name. We both began doing things together. We spent long hours on the phone just enjoying each other's company. I was getting into it but I wasn't into it too. Did she notice? I can't say. I enjoyed her company but I felt we were building towards a climax I wasn't ready for. 

I had to tell her ASAP or hurt her the more. I had restrictions as regards relationship, she obviously didn't. She was a freebird, ready to explore and move on too if it didn't work out. I wanted just friendship but she insisted on a relationship. Something I consider a little more deeper than I could handle. I was beginning to lose my mind. How could I have come this far. I gave her too many "go signs." Now I had to make it right. I'm not a flirt. Come to think of it, I'm a christian who believes in keeping yourself till marriage. 

When I began to put words into action, I was given the shocker of my life. Then I realized that...

let's get on to the final episode...

© Phillip Owolabi

Bio: I am a student of English at Obafemi Awolowo University